music from another room

there it is again! did you hear it? listen. stop. listen more. music - coming from another room. walk towards the music. stop. listen. question. listen. stop. listen. decide. listen. walk in. listen.

i keep getting a sense of the music from another room being "change" that word - change continues to run through my mind like the Jumanji drums called to little Alan. is it time for change? do i need to change? i will admit i get excited about change. so my first thought is to run toward that other room and run right in. then i think about what i would leave behind and that's when i stop and listen. i should be listening to God every step of the way. but sometimes my selfish little self just runs ahead.

what kind of change is on the horizon for me God? i think i've become a little complacent (a.k.a. lazy) and need to go to boot camp to get myself ready for this change. will the faster pace of the music make me more effective? possibly. will being in the other room give me a better idea of 'real life on the outside' so as to change my perspective of the people in this room? maybe. if i go into the other room, will i still have a place in this room? i hope so. my heart beats for His glory and my mind races for the people of this room. is this a me thing or a God thing? i think that is the question i must keep in mind. i don't want to even walk one more step toward that other room if it is not His desire. what if all the options are all good? how does one decide what to do?

so. i sit and wait and listen to the music from another room. may i hear His voice above all the noise so that i indeed know when to walk toward the other room and step across the threshold of that door. i simply want God to be glorified.

Lord, I pray that the change you've been orchestrating will be very clear to me. I want to be willing to do what will be best for your kingdom and your people. You are in control and I am here to listen and respond. Help me know when it is time to change and what to do.